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Wildflower Abandon

Spring in the Hill Country is almost always beautiful; this year it is spectacular.  The rain finally came back and wildflowers are proliferating everywhere.  Some fields are so thick with bluebonnets they create an illusion of a small lake.  Locals and tourists both are out in droves to drink up the sights.  Friends are remarking over and over how glad they are for the flowers to return so strongly after the drought last year. 

While others smile joyously, I find myself holding back from the excitement.  Yes, I look for and point out flowers, but something in me hesitates from completely abandoning myself to the intensity of their beauty.  It was only yesterday that I put my finger on it.  It’s the drought of last year.  I still think about the drought, even as I look at these fields in bloom. 

It was a really bad drought, lasting for fifteen months.  Cattle died, trees died, fields turned to dirt – even grassy parks in town turned to dirt.  Towns nearby went within days of running out of water, while towns farther off actually ran out.  Entire lakes and rivers dried up.  Foundations cracked.  Technically, we are still in a drought with stage 4 water restrictions still in place.  Though good rains have come since December, we have not replenished our aquifers much at all. 

I hesitate to fall fully into the joy of this beautiful wildflower picture, as if doing so might jinx our good fortune of the last few months.  Silly, yes, yet there it is, like feeling you have to be careful when someone offers you a deal too good to be true.  I’ve been looking at this magnificent display of color and wonder with an eye out for the drought that might be lurking just behind it.  There is no con man in the background.  There is only color and beauty and now.

Sometimes just recognizing a fear creates enough power to set it aside.  That’s the case with me and the wildflowers.  Once I realized what was holding me back from enjoying them, I could let it go.  So I did, and spent the afternoon driving around my neighborhood and nearby country lanes looking for wildflowers. 

 What keeps you from being fully present with beauty in your life?

Tonight, my husband and I hike Enchanted Rock State Park, which is sure to be loaded with flowers and trickling water.  I’m going to be in the middle of one of the most beautiful scenes ever made and can’t wait to enjoy it all.  Maybe I’ll see you out there, letting go of fear and falling with complete abandon into beauty.


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Some people say there is nothing more beautiful than a confident woman at ease in her body and with herself.  We all need role models like that, and the young woman I met last night is a good one.  She was radiant, confident, quietly electrifying and beautiful.  She drew people to her as we gathered in the dressing room to model for a fashion show.  Ariana had never modeled before and said she was a bit nervous.  She didn’t look nervous.  She looked beautiful and sure of herself in an understated way.  I wondered if my college-age son knew her from school, so I asked Ariana how old she was.  I guessed she was about twenty.

Ariana is just thirteen.  Thirteen, the age when most American girls fret over how they look, worried that something or another is not just right.  A nose too big, a chest too small, skin not clear enough, an outfit not cool enough – those are the things young teenagers often worry about, and those worries usually show up in how they carry themselves and connect with others.  Some of us carry those worries into our adult selves, continuing to build on theories of “not enough” and “too much” while downplaying strengths. 

Rarely do you see a thirteen year old girl with the unassuming confidence Ariana had in herself, especially a young woman that is about to walk down a runway for the first time.  She had no training; only a demonstration of how to turn and pose had been given her.  She had seen the lights, cameras, and large white screen that would greet her at the end of a runway woven through a crowd.  The show was for business owners that represent JR Collection www.jacquerudman.com.   Ariana was ready.  At about 5’10”, many girls might have worn flats or low heels.  (Models were given complete discretion on footwear.)  Ariana chose spiked 4” heels.  She looked fantastic and glided easily down the runway. 

In a world where many hesitate to reach out with 100% of their capacity, this young woman stood tall and ready to take on a new challenge.  So many girls and women hide or dim their natural gifts.  Few understand the freedom of living life to the fullest.  As I stood next to Ariana waiting for my turn on the runway, I smiled and thought about how much fun she was having.  She seemed calm, though her eyes showed a sense of excitement and anticipation.

I was in the presence of someone living entirely in the moment and it was contagious.  It was then I realized what a role model Ariana was being for each of us that night.  I relaxed and stepped out toward the runway feeling good, moving smoothly and smiling as though each person there was a good friend.  Ariana helped me do that.  She was modeling so much more than the clothes, and she doesn’t even know it.  Thank you Ariana, for modeling the kind of woman I want to be!

I think we all need a little more Ariana attitude in us.  Here is a question to ponder if you agree: 

Who would you be if you let your beauty shine 100%?

This is the kind of question my clients often use to decide where they want to go and what they need to do to move there.  It isn’t a selfish task.  Being the most radiant you is a way of showing appreciation for your gifts, of respecting the life you’ve been given.  Give it some thought, and decide what you want going forward.  Then lead yourself and others to a more beautiful self.


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